Jyn.Jiani

2011-01-19T18:12:00.000-08:00

昨晚你会来看我了.

你还是很热烈地跟我爸妈说笑.

你还是有着那灿烂的笑容

你抱着我说你从来都没有离开过,说你回来看我.

一转眼, 你就走了. 向我挥挥手, 笑着离开了.

你现在应该很好吧!

谢谢你,　见了我最后一面.　

对不起.　

2011-01-18T23:40:00.000-08:00

so u need someone who understands.

but how do u make him understand?

2011-01-17T04:16:00.000-08:00

it's always good to hear from you.

let's hang!

tbl style.

2011-01-03T05:38:00.000-08:00

Flinstone is da bomb!

2011-01-03T05:34:00.000-08:00

why does it feel so weird?

so complicated..

i screwed up

it will never be like how it used to be yeh?

2010-12-14T22:20:00.000-08:00

I SERIOUSLY LOVE TAIWAN!

2010-11-24T20:10:00.000-08:00

I AM BOREDDDDDDDDDDDDD!!!1

2010-10-14T05:11:00.000-07:00

So this is it..

You are really gone..

It's been about 2 months now..

If this happened to one of our friend, I can imagine you telling me what an idiot that person is..

And now. This is you. Why were you such an idiot?

What's the point of asking you? You are no longer here..

If this is how you choose to leave and run away from someone, from all your responsibilities, you have successfully away from everyone. Breaking everyone's heart. Leaving everyone to clean your ass. WHAT AN IDIOT!

I miss you but you are an idiot.

I am furious but I don't know what to do. I wish you are still around so I can call and yell

2010-10-12T03:21:00.001-07:00

SUCK IT UP JYN LUI!

IT'LL ALL BE OVER SOON!

ARGHHHHHHHH!

2010-10-10T04:20:00.000-07:00

Miss PIGGY suggested that I should shut down my blog. Lol. I get it.. I'll blog NOW!

_____________________________

This is it for me. Placements have all ended. No more ugly blue La Trobe uniform for me ever again. It feels good not to stress about being late for the bloody tram that is never here on time. No more evaluation and assessment or supervision. Bye Bye UNI and HELLOOOOOOO REGISTERED NURSE.

Am I ready? I doubt it. Am I shitting myself? Hell yeh.. Stress about passing my last sem, IELTS result, getting a place for graduate year program, rent, my trip...... GEEEZ.. after all of these, I will be a nurse. I real one. No more 'student' in front of the 'nurse'. But am I excited? Damn straight I am. =D

I am looking forward to changes, to a new life, a new perspective, a new everything. No one said it was going to be easy, but I will be just fine.

I have changed since Melbourne. My personality, my life, my everything. I am different but the same from who I was back from many years ago. Friends had changed me, people changed me, the culture changed me. They reminded me of who I should be. I found myself here. The me who I have forgotten. The person who I was once told I should be.

A few more days, everything will be different for me. I will get a new job, a new room and a new life. Am I excited? yes. It will never be the same because I will know me better. I want the changes. I like it.

2010-07-18T05:45:00.000-07:00

MEHHHHHH!

uni starts tmr. to be exact, it started yesterday- a saturday..

production rehearsal is going really slow and i cant bloodyy read the score..

the bf is away at tassie.. this is the first day we are not seeing each other and i miss him like hell!

and there's a pimple in my nose. =[

oh well.. guess ill just have to get over it!

2010-07-17T22:43:00.000-07:00

this is my man.. peter lam. =]

2010-07-01T23:27:00.000-07:00

it's about time i update the blog. ha..

just finished exam 3 days ago.. been busy with uni and work

and CMG PRODUCTION!

this was the camp!

2010-06-02T03:43:00.000-07:00

So I am really bored

I should be doing my assignment but I am not

Wondering if I should book my tickets to Hong Kong now?

2010-05-30T16:53:00.000-07:00

Why does my heart skip a beat when I see your name?

So i am still working on my 1st assignment thats due next monday.

oh did i mention that there're 2 assignments due on the same day?

FML..

2010-05-29T04:36:00.001-07:00

maybe i shouldn't force anything.

no expectation

2010-05-26T02:12:00.000-07:00

Oh dear..

Do you know the feeling when you want to nap for as long as you can because you have so much time? I hate it when I can't

Do you know the feeling of sleeping in on days when it is so cold? I hate it when I can't

Do you know the feeling when you really want to catch up with a friend because you havent seen each other for so long and you just want to sit, relax and talk? I hate it when I can't

Do you know the feeling of talking to someone you like on msn and hoping it never ends? I hate it when I can't

Do you know the feeling of knowing what you are doing exactly, when questions are being asked and you know the right answer? I hate it when I can't

Do you know the feeling when you can sit there all night and listen to your best friend sing and support her when she needs it? I hate it when I can't

There's so many things that I want to do. I have to do and I can't because I have no time.

Placement on tues- fri and work over the weekends. Filling up free time for assignments and Monday is the only day I am free and I hate it when the market is not open on Mondya!

HATE IT HATE IT!!

2010-05-17T22:07:00.000-07:00

placement has started again.

this time, I am having a gerontic placement at central park.

amazing facilities at that place because of the amount the residents are paying!

2 grands a month! not including the bond that they pay which would be about 300k!!

god damn it. give me the money and i'll care for your folks!

so first day of placement was boring as usual.

well i do have a nice malaysian clinical teacher and nice course mate on the same floor.

the only concern is the residents.

regardless of the complaints that I heard from the last group, I am really hoping I wont run into any unpleasant residents.

*fingers cross x 9999*

Alex and I were really lucky today.

WE DIDNT HAVE TO WAIT FOR A TRAM!!! YAY!

but.. this grumpy tram driver was giving us a hard time.

full on slammed the door from his seat and screamed at us

because we made him missed the green lights.

all he had to wait was another 1 minute.

and I swear people were laughing at the back

Alex and I just didnt know what to say to him.

sigh..

We were both annoyed for being yelled at and decided that I will file a complaint

which i just did.

Screw you tram driver!

Thanks for waiting but we really don't appreciate being yelled at.

2010-05-16T17:38:00.000-07:00

seriously. fuck off...

why do you care what I call my friends?

what do u know about it?

and who are you to judge?

if you are reading this right now.

fuck off.

i don need you here.

2010-05-12T17:33:00.000-07:00

why am i so stubborn?

I see how sarcastic you are. I know how judgemental you can be and the ego you have.

You have such short temper and narrow minded. So full of yourself that you don't even notice.

The most important thing is, you don't even have feelings for me.

I know we are so different but why can't I just let go?

I am better off without you.

Just walk away Jyn.

Walk away.

p/s

heart lives in my v?

2010-05-08T05:05:00.000-07:00

assignment due in 2 weeks.

2 assignments in the week after.

I AM SO SCREWWWWED!

2010-05-04T21:15:00.000-07:00

you want what you can't get

when you like her,

you say 'hi' everytime u see her name pops up on msn

and now you don't

so you ignore her existance.

how nice.

2010-05-03T18:20:00.000-07:00

i find it silly when lil girls go

"OMG! I MISS YOU AND I LOVE YOU FOREVER!"

ohh.. not to the bfs

to the IDOLS

I guess that's why they are lil girls.

2010-04-17T23:59:00.000-07:00

it's just not the same

you used to talk like there's no tmr.

you used to make me laugh so much that I don't want to go to bed.

you used to be nice.

you used to care.

and now you don't

is it me who has changed?

or you taking it for granted.

i miss the person who I first knew.

2010-02-26T13:44:00.001-08:00

i think it's time to seriously take it slow and have a normal life.

i need a normal life.

i just wanna be myself all over again.

2010-01-14T06:11:00.000-08:00

when u have the options
you can't decide which one to pick.

when u missed your chance to pick
you will be left with no choices.

what are you going to do then?
are you going to go with the last option or to just wait patiently?
should you listen to your heart?
the heart which is so confused..

2010-01-10T19:38:00.000-08:00

Jyn's new year resolutions

Attend all lectures and tutorials.
Learn to swim
Travel to at least 2 places : hong kong and hamilton island
Keep my ck job
Get a slr camera
Eat healthy and exercise mooooore!
Killllllll the exam
Take more photos
Shop less ? or sell some of my clothesss.. hehe.. for more shopping!

maybe a goldendoodle too? =D

2009-12-31T23:58:00.000-08:00

we fought we made up.
it was awesome having you on nye.
mr awesome.
xo

happy new year!!!

2009-12-20T04:12:00.000-08:00

wiped my tears and told myself to have more faith and everything will work miracle.
things will be real good soon.

2 hours later.
I was the happiest person in the entire planet. haha.
mr awesome rocked up looking awesome with his awesome tomyum soup.
we had an awesome dinner and an awesome talk.
one of the most awesome night i've ever had with him.

thanks my mr awesome.
you were kinda awesome tonight. x

2009-12-19T04:43:00.000-08:00

ARGGGHHHHHHHHHH!! these people are SOOOOOOO late.. seriously cannot be bothered anymore mehhhhh...
i actually feel like strangling someone now.. but at the same time, i really wanna do some booze and get a weeee bit tipssssiyyyy tonight , yes?

i better get a call in 10 or i am gonna make them go Down down and dead tonight!

2009-12-12T04:29:00.000-08:00

bwahahahhahahahhahaha.....
got my results tonight!! =]
i totally killlllled it!
man im good ;]

been working and bumming at home heaps...
im telling you
i love it!

but i do miss home..
miss home
miss home.
i wonder if anyone misses me..
mmmm....

xmas is coming sooon!
memories are some how brought back with the once upon a time lover
he is back in town
man... i went nuts when i received his missed call! cant believe i missed it!
=[
what will this xmas be like?
is it going to be like last year?
or is everything gonna start over again like nothing really happened?
what about things that are going on at the moment..

so many questions come with the one missed call.
i guess i just have to see what to do as it goes.
wish me luck!

2009-12-09T07:00:00.000-08:00

i need some faith to keep walking down this road..
i need some hope and will you please give me a sign?
i need to know everything will be ok..
i know everything will be ok..

xo

2009-11-11T04:32:00.000-08:00

Jyn: do you still want ur surprise present?

Tai: Oh!!!!!!!!!!! That's right.. that's why I couldnt sleep last night cause I was trying to figure it out.What is it? *serious face*

Jyn: Bwahahahhahahhahahhahahahhahahhahahahhaha.. thats freaking funny and cute. i thought..
bawhahahahhahaha
*that laugh lasted about 2 minutes*

Jyn: re u serious? haha..

Tai: No.. of course not..

Jyn: *slap slap slap*

2009-11-09T04:26:00.000-08:00

i will always remember.
it was a tuesday night.
i was nervous the whole day..
constantly waiting for my phone to ring..
awhh miiiiann.. i was NERVOUSS!! lol..
we went for coffee at the oldest cafe in melbourne
had a looooong walk down to crown..
the cuddles from the cold weather and the fire.. lol..
especially the dink back to home..
miannnn.. i miss u.
hehehe..
=]

2009-11-04T01:08:00.000-08:00

blahhhh..
i go crazy after a week. only a week.
i need to stay focus. seriously.
exam is just around the corner and i am in deep shit.
i really need to start concentrating on my life..
my own life.

pfffttt. JYN LUIII!!!

2009-10-27T07:26:00.000-07:00

If you asked. my favourite flower is sunflower. it's pwwweeety and it makes me feel sunny. ;)

oh. im feeling sunflower now!!
=D

2009-10-16T08:52:00.000-07:00

back at malaysia..
i think its the last day of hari raya.. fire crackers are going crazy out there..
i kinda miss this feeling.. the firecrackers.. the warm and sticky.. lol.. maybe not the puffy eyes and running nose..

and oh. i kinda miss melbourne a lilttle.
actually. just MR TAI.. hehe..
mr taiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii!

2009-10-07T07:50:00.000-07:00

i wan mr tai..

=]

xo

2009-10-01T06:00:00.001-07:00

Your fingertips across my skin
The palm trees swaying in the wind
Images

You sang me Spanish lullabies
The sweetest sadness in your eyes
Clever trick

I never want to see you unhappy
I thought you'd want the same for me

Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
Can't you just let me be?
So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
I should've known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do

We walked along a crowded street
You took my hand and danced with me
Images

And when you left you kissed my lips
You told me you'd never ever forget these images, no

I never want to see you unhappy
I thought you'd want the same for me

Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
Can't you just let me be?
So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
I should've known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do

I cannot go to the ocean
I cannot drive the streets at night
I cannot wake up in the morning
Without you on my mind
So you're gone and I'm haunted
And I bet you are just fine
Did I make it that easy
To walk right in and out of my life?

Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
Can't you just let me be?
So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
I should've known you'd bring me heartache

Almost lovers always do

2009-09-12T17:33:00.000-07:00

2 weeks of placement is over.. 2 more weeks to go..
can't wait till it's over..
and i get to FLYYYYYYYYYYYY home... WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!

placement at mental health is boring.
interesting sometimes. but mostly boring.. =[
well. i guess the good side is i get to work on my assignments.

**

4 weeks counting down till MSIA!
i wanna go home. i wan mummy's food! =[

**

im gonna miss my Mr Artsy.. when im not around..
sigh..

**

i got dhanish a lilttle something from melbourne..
i bet he's not reading this. and he wont know. hehehehe...

**

oh.. shopping is still the best over here...
i literally shop till drop..

**

im hungry.. alex is still asleeeeeeep...
as if brunch.. pffft..
might just grab some breakie on errol.
but i wan dim simssss..

**

assignment is due next monday. not cool.

**

im going to continue with my work....
taaa taaaaa... *wave and smile*

**

2009-09-08T03:53:00.000-07:00

i guess i should stop trying so hard to understand u.
i guess eventually i will know u better than u do.
take my time.
take your time.
i just have to believe that everything is gonna be ok.
this time.
it will be ok.
i just need to trust u a lil bit more.

x

2009-09-05T04:39:00.000-07:00

i hv this bad feeling.. a feeling about me..
i wan it to go away cox it's bugging me and it makes me unhappy.
im in my corset. ready for the party.
but i wan my mr here with me.
he's way to busy for a party. or even for me.
i just wan the feeling to go away.
i wanna believe something good is gonna happen..
pls. let. something. good. happen.

2009-08-31T04:48:00.001-07:00

do u remember how u always wanted to go for ur big bro's wedding when u were a lil kid?
well maybe not.
but i did.
and now.. it's the time!!!!

16th Oct.

I AM COmING HOmEEEEEEEEEEE!!!

2009-08-26T16:57:00.000-07:00

me likeyyy.
=D

2009-08-25T06:17:00.000-07:00

the weather is shit!
cold and windy.
i don wanna go to uni cox i have unfinished assignments.
i wanna see my loser. but he's got unfinished assignments as well.

S.U.C.K. S.H.I.T

p/s gv me good weather tmr so i can go for my date. =]

2009-08-22T22:42:00.001-07:00

does it freak u out a lil when u found out that someone else out there knows about ur life?

maybe it should be on private.. hmm..

2009-08-21T17:40:00.000-07:00

hmm.. where should i start?
life hasnt been all good but compared to children from 3rd world country i guess im pretty damn lucky.
lol.. i shall cut the crap and start a proper entry.

***
2 weeks back.. mieee girls and mieee decided to go Boutique..
a non-asian-night.
rocked up the place and too late to realise that I was under dressed and yes..

WE RE TOOOOO YOUNG for the crowd!!

nevertheless, we tried to have as much fun as we can. =]

PLUS! mieee girls were absolutely stunning.. how can i not post any photos?!

YEH! my FAV GIRL of all time
ALEX

and we have the- driver- not-driver
Zali

note the drunknessssss..

wooo.. EVEN HAPPIER!

Zali's at that 'i feel ugly' phase.
U RE NOT WOMAN!!

alcohol kicking in. =D

oh yes.. we got the movess..

love u loooong time.. xoxoxo

**********

I was working on saturday night and Sky came up to me
"I'm going to Mornington tmr"
" OH! wow.. Can I come?"
"......*long paused*erm... i suppose"

so yes, i self-invited to Mornington with Sky and ALL his other friends that I have never met in my life.
yes. i know. I am crazy..

we had 2 hours sleep before that and left for mornington at 5.30am.
><>

2 hours drive
and here we re..

HOT SPRING BABE!!

sauna room

mind blowing cold tiny pool at the front and the comfy comfy pool right at the back.

oh.. my fav machine. that vibrates.. lol..

NEXT
STOP!

DEZZZ MAAAAAZZZZEEE!

u really don wanna get lost in this shit. it's pretty scary..

real pretty lavenders =]

SKY!

he's not gay! seriously..

knight in the shining armour that stood right at the entrance.
=]

these herbs are so commonly used and it just amazed me. lol
im a sucker for nature!
********
till then..
oh.. my favourite pic of the day.
taken by ME!
=D

loves <3

2009-07-29T06:44:00.000-07:00

there are so many of them out there..
what are the chances of u finding someone who's like you?
u guys re exactly the same apart from the fact that he's a he.
what re the chances of u knowing each other?
and what re the chances of you falling in love to each other?
low? high?
i donno. u tell me.

i guess thats why love is something so important.. so vital. so special.
cause chances re. u falling in love with someone-someone who u know it's right- is god damn low.

may all of us find that someone in our life. =]

2009-07-26T04:37:00.001-07:00

chemistry. no chemistry.
gv me the chemistry pls!

2009-07-22T19:19:00.000-07:00

how do u define a good night out?
fancy dinner at an expensive restaurant, with flowers and roses..
that does sound good, well planned, and romantic.
but i had a great night too! hehe..

with nasi goreng, transformers 2 and rainy tram stop.

2009-07-21T22:13:00.000-07:00

it's raining. in melbourne. during winter.
why am i not surprise.. sigh..

been called fat a lot recently.
and i am not surprise. cox i blame it on winter. hehehe..
but i actually do feel much more clumsier and feel ugly in clothes.
hence, i decided to go for a run ytd.
it was a good day and prolly the warmest winter day ever.
was running for 15 minutes and realised that ive lost my keys!! my key to my roooooooom!
arghhhhhh!
spent the next 45 minutes looking for it but no luck.=[
so cant lock my door atm so feel free to come and steal my stuff from my room. hahaha..

had dinner with azlan last night
and had heaps and heaps of cuddling. =]
i cannot be happierrrrrrrr....

it's still raining.
it's still cold.
i think i might go watch grey's anatomy now.

xoxoxo

2009-07-18T02:17:00.000-07:00

woohooo.. JYN is happyyyy!
it's been a good day for me.. real good. besides the fact that i am blooooody hungry atm..

anyways.
was at azlan's last night and had a great night.. =]
got back home and went out for lunch today..
auction rooms is definitely the place to be!
had my pork scotch.. mmmm..
was reading Twilight over lunch and it was a real good afternoon being a loner. hahah..

came home and decided that I would try my luck and see if the results re out.
and YES! ive passed!!
and i actually did a not-bad-job considering that I was real sick for exams and gossip girls..
I am really happy with my results and at least I know I will do will for the next sem! woot woot..

So was working at Platinum last night and I get paid when I get more than 10 ppl in for the night.
I just heard a good news that I HAD 14 ppl last night!! which means I get extra 30-50 next week. + I was working at the door earlier on the night I definitely get EXTRA money for next weeeeeekkkkkk!! exciting much!

and now.. knowing all these good news just make me hungry for some reason.. I need to eat and DRINK like a nutsyyyy tonight! YAYYYY!!!

alright.. i hv nothing else to write and I am just bored..

I will think of sth to do while waiting for Mr Ismail..

Hv a good night peeeeeepS!

2009-07-17T01:23:00.000-07:00

终于鼓起了勇气向喜欢的人诚实。
告诉他关于你那不堪回首的过去
然而，他却又有多少的勇气去接受？

我们常说过去都可以被原谅
要是自己也没有办法面对，
要是他预想不到的时候
你又可以接受多少？
说得容易，做得难。。。

过去的我造就成现在的我
而过去真的可以被人遗忘吗？
真的可以被原谅吗？

一次次相信，
有一天，会被原谅
却一次次地失望
我会有多勇敢地面对打击呢？

或许有一天终究都不会被接受
或许有一天他会看到我的美
当那一天来临时，
我会比从前更勇敢。

2009-07-14T07:41:00.000-07:00

woke up earlier today.
was totally in a good mood cox I HAVE PLANS.
instead of doing nothing for the past 3 weeks.
=S

So watched Grey's Anatomy ( as usual), facial and coffee with bi jia!
It was good catching up with her. I can't even remember when was the last time I met up with her.
Had lunch with Lorraine and it was almost 5pm already.

As everyone knows I am a loner and an idiot for NOT bringing my Twilight out, I had nothing to do but going to state library for more Scrabble. It's a good game to keep yourself busy. Real good game.

Met up with Azlan for movie (at state library) and was being bag cox I was playing scrabble. pfffttt.. It is a good game and I lost cox of his beer! pfft..
We went for ICE AGE 333333333!!

oh oh and did I mentioned it's 3D?!
hehe..

It was freaking awesome with the 007 glasses and of cox the absolutely funny story line.
and yes.. the company and his choc top.=)

these 2 characters re cute! stupid! an cute!

haha.. and i totally love the part when the pine nut got ditched. IT was heartbroken. CRACKED!!!
it's even got a song of the nut.. LMAO!

*******
Had dinner with Azlan after.
Definitely had a great time with him tonight.
He's awesome. Freaking awesome.
hopefully there will be photos soon.
*******

and sorry that my post is pretty bad.
it's boring and boring and boring.
I need more practice

hopefully i will update soon!

xoxoxo

2009-07-12T08:50:00.000-07:00

电视上放映的画面出现眼前
那个可爱的男生对你在放电
走上前来请你喝杯酒
呵呵

不自觉地聊了起来
从前，现在，未来
原来这个可爱男生来自家乡
原来这个可爱男生挺有内含
“我们明天再来！” 他说
你暗自开心得要命
呵呵

原来这样也可以很开心

2009-07-05T08:32:00.000-07:00

what would you do when you find out that you may have cancer?
a type of cancer that brings shame. a cancer that you can never bring it up to your parents.
what would you do?
what can you do?
will you be afraid?
will you cry?
are you strong enough?

2009-07-01T20:45:00.000-07:00

I need some courage.
I need you to be here.
I can't let anyone else know.
I need to fight strong.

This will be my fight. Just me. I need to be strong.

I have to be strong.

2009-06-17T05:02:00.000-07:00

sick sick sick..
never been in so much temperature.. 38.7! can u beat me? hahaha..
im having a massive flu now btw..
vomiting, fever, muscle soreness, cough, blocked nose.
yes.. all the signs and symtoms of the FLYING PIG FLUUUUU..

went to the doctor, pharmacist and caught the cab home after dinner with DUI *=D*
DOCTOR, PHARMACIST, and CAB DRIVER were the WORST people ever. they were so unfriendly and bloody rude! geeez.. don these ppl have any manners at all?!

but i do feel loved still!
alex and kat were pretty much with me all day to make sure i was ok. <3>
Dui came for me when i was at the clinic, had dinner with me, took me home and kept me company. <3>
housemate made me mushroom cream soup cause I am sick. <3>

what else can i ask for?
=D

I AM LOVED!

and i think the loves are making me recovering from flu.

2009-06-10T09:09:00.000-07:00

alrightyyy..
this shall be a proper post.. lol... sorry of the lack of updates.. just cbb blogging really.
too many things going on and it's just wayyy too hard to be explained on blogs.

anyways..
so.. ive moved to a new place like... 3 months ago.. and it's a nice comfy room with everything!
simply loving my audrey herpen and marilyn monroe on my walls!=D

sorry for side tracking all the times.. yes.. back to my lil room..
it's comfy and MESSY! like major major dirty and messy cox i hv to many things and just simply too little shelves and racks to put my stuffs. so it's pretty much all over the place.

came back from melb uni today and decided NAH, IVE HAD ENOUGH OF MY ROOM!
so... started moving all my stuffs.. clothes, shoes, books and WARDOBE! yes.. wordrobe..
that is prolly the most heavy thing ive ever pushed my whole life. it literally took me half an hour to move that wardrobe from one end to the other. FAAARRR it's freaking long considering the size of my room.. geeeeeez! no more moving wardrobes ever again!

still in the process of cleaning.. decided to sell clothes that I hardly wear.. why take up my space in the wardrobe when i can put it into my account? hahaha..

right..
gotta get back to it or i'll have to sleep on the floor tonight!

=]

xoxox

p/s: u can call me fat and i don care!
cox i hv the curves like marilyn monroe!
=D

2009-05-26T05:43:00.000-07:00

i think i'm in love with you.
bet you don't know..

2009-05-18T07:45:00.000-07:00

first day of placement was such a disaster
upset + hormones acting up
i was totally at the lowest

thanks for being there for me when i thought u would bailed.
thanks a million.

HUG

2009-05-17T04:59:00.000-07:00

he was..

interesting
funny
kind
caring
thoughtful
sweet
loving.

he is everything u want from a guy.

then he turned his back

walked away.

leaving u..

broken-hearted
lost
alone
painful
crying
disappointed
numb

and eventually.. u think maybe.. maybe..

it's over.

he came back.
wanted what they had.

it felt different.
no excitement
no joy
no nothing.

it was just plain..........
nothing.

nothing left.

nothing at all. and that's actually painful.

2009-05-15T19:11:00.000-07:00

why do i not think about u anymore?
why do i not miss u like how i used to?

maybe there is always a limit. how much a heart can hold.
i guess it's been wayyy too much for my heart.

too many dissapointments.
too many crying nights.
u donno and u don understand.

i guess.
it's over.

it's over.

2009-05-13T07:59:00.000-07:00

As you go on in this world

ALWAYS BELIEVE IN YOUR DREAMS

Keep looking forward to the future... to all you might be.

Don't let old mistakes or misfortunes hold you down: learn from them, forgive yourself.. or others... and move on.

Don't be bothered or discouraged by adversity. Instead, meet it as a challenge. Be empowered by the courage it takes you to overcome obstacles.

Learn something new every day. Be interested in others and what they might be teaching you, but do not look for yourself in other people's approval. As far as who you are and who you will become goes........

.. the answer is always within yourself. Follow your heart and your dreams.

You..... like everyone... will make mistakes.

But so long as you are true to the strength within your own heart.. you can never go wrong...
****

found this card in a cute lil store
got myself a nice card and feeling really good about it.
every word seems like it was written for me.

believe in my dreams...

****

Have you been thinking about me like how I think of you?
Maybe it doesn't matter anymore..

****

2009-05-11T02:42:00.000-07:00

u being uncertain about us. about me. about her.
what is it that u want?
what is it that u don want?
i need some answers but u re always running away from me.
maybe it's just right when he said u re just not that into me.
im just not ur cup of tea.
come on. tell me. say sth. pls.

2009-05-07T18:45:00.000-07:00

seeing and talking to u for just that 10 minutess.. made my day.
maybe i shouldnt ask for more.
maybe it's best this way.
i'm glad that we re still friends.

<3 u always.

2009-05-04T07:10:00.000-07:00

of cox. of cox..
why didnt i thought that?
u rather believe in someone whose hurt u than the person who cares for u.
u believe in bros before whoresss..
u just cant live with the fact that i didnt gv u the whole story.
u just cant accept me..

doesnt matter anymore..
u can hv all the space and freedom u want.
i have never take it away from you.
i have never stop you from doing it.

if u believe that i am wrong.
good for u..
do what u wish to..

goodbye..

2009-05-01T08:45:00.001-07:00

no text or phone calls from you.
i'm trying to put up my smile still.. for u.

good night darling.
=]
xoxo

2009-04-28T10:41:00.000-07:00

things sometimes do not work out the way u want them to be..
because u were an idiot back then.
and u don always get a chance.

pls pls pls..
i need a chance to turn things around..

2009-04-27T08:08:00.001-07:00

ur heart's beating so fast cox u re so lost.
so lost when u cant find him.
so worry that if it is happening again?

god.. come on..
i've had enough..
don do this to me again..

2009-04-26T06:03:00.001-07:00

get well soon baby.

i wan to go on a date!

2009-04-26T05:52:00.000-07:00

we shall let the photos do the talking. =]
Minh's 23!!

Birthday BOY!

2009-04-07T10:57:00.000-07:00

1.58 am

3.58am.

i miss u tooo..

if only u were here.. if only i was there..

i miss u too..

2009-03-08T05:33:00.000-07:00

Do u remember the last time when u just do whatever u like, don care about what people think of u and had so much fun?

well..

i guess being over the whole relationship thing is a good thing for me.
a break or whatever u call it.

i am loving it!

<3

2009-02-23T22:55:00.000-08:00

你的名字浮现在荧幕上，

我的心仍会忍不住抽痛一下。

到底怎么了？

2009-02-20T20:08:00.000-08:00

i am in love..

not.

just having a hang over and a lil wrong in the brain.

2009-02-15T05:28:00.000-08:00

i'm officially. 20. =]

oh oh oh!

ive received.. well not really cox i get to pick my present.. lol..

again..

oh oh oh!

ive received a MNG bag from my girls..

birthday wish list..

*everyone at home stays happy and healthy.*
*Chester would call and wish me. Cox i miss him too much. =[*
*i lose 10 kg! bwahahaha..*
*cameraaaa cox the old one is broken.*
*get a PCA job asap.*
*save up for HK / New Zealand.*
*the hot iphone cover i saw ytd. =]*
*do well during exam and placements!*
* get rid of arseholes in my life.*

2009-02-12T07:29:00.000-08:00

hormones are driving me nuts..

first.. i was pissed off cox FUCK! zouk's postponed to next week!

then.. had a fight with chester which just seriously wasnt anyone's fault.. bloody msn doesnt doesnt explain to you if a person is joking or being serious about what he said..hence, misunderstanding.

i gave in. said sorry and webcam session was awesome after..

i miss him so so so so much.. really..

i wanna listen to your voice and still call u babe if u'd let me..

i wanna be there for u to dry ur tears and listen to u sing.

i wanna watch u play cello, watch u crazy with ur frens.

i wan u here. here. right now.

was talking to zhiqi and her telling me who and who re not gonna show up for my lunch pissed me of BIG TIME!

sometimes i wonder whats friendship for? whats the point of trying so hard to keep in touch with everyone when they probably don even remember u?

u give up at times but days with the hormones messing around, u just get so fed up with everyone..

as if, u don put any effort. as if, 7 years of friendship is nothing!

ANGRY ANGRY ANGRY!

i am sorry for being an angry person. i feel much better after talking about it.

2009-02-12T05:37:00.000-08:00

EXes are SHITS!

2009-02-12T05:32:00.001-08:00

i hate it when u treat me like an idiot!

2009-02-09T07:35:00.000-08:00

nothing happened but just feeling down

....

2009-02-07T08:53:00.000-08:00

會呼吸的痛

在东京铁塔第一次眺望

看灯火模仿坠落的星光

我终於到达但却更悲伤

一个人完成我们的梦想

你总说时间还很多你可以等我

以前我不懂得未必明天就有以后

想念是会呼吸的痛

它活在我身上所有角落

哼你爱的歌会痛看你的信会痛连沉默也痛

遗憾是会呼吸的痛

他留在血液中来回滚动

后悔不贴心会痛恨不懂你会痛

想见不能见最痛

没看你脸上张扬过哀伤

那是重多么寂寞的倔强

你拆了城墙让我去流浪

在原地等我把自己捆绑

你没说你也会软弱需要倚赖我

我就装不晓得自由移动自我地过

我发誓不再说谎了多爱你就会抱你多紧的

我的微笑都假了灵魂像飘浮着你在就好了

我发誓不让你等候陪你做想做的无论什么

我越来越像贝壳怕心被人触碰

你回来那就好了能重来那就好了

2009-02-06T20:47:00.000-08:00

Introducing

VIVIAN DAWSON

Yes! It's vivian. His real name!

SO, here I am in Sg. and viv texted me ytd morning so we could catch up and we finally did!

same ol same viv with his pretty pretty face.. and super nice guy. =]

havent seen him for ages and he is turning into a SUPER MODEL real soon!

catch him on next issue of CLEO. He's gonna be on the cover page. ;)

oh yes.. He is HOT arse!

well.. too bad ladies cox he is taken!

yeshh.. his gf is bloody hot as well.. =]

take 1 !

* i looked like imma Angle.. lulzzz*

take 2!

*oh oh oh~ spot my tan line!* =]

anyways.. it was great catching up wit him cox i thought i wasnt gonna see him ever again when he was leaving melby..

============================

oh.. Fransine came for a bit after as well.. she was looking gorgeous.=]

============================

Went to balcony with BABY FOO for drinks after..

and we ended up clubbing at DBL O!

it was good fun knowing heaps of new ppl.. and it gets funnier when i started talking shit to them.

the HIGH me.. lols..

I haven been having so much fun at club since forever!

I had fun and hopefully the rest did as well.

thanks to BABY again for taking me out.

xoxoxo

2009-02-05T07:42:00.000-08:00

he said he was leaving..

we kissed good bye and that's the end..

he didnt look back. not at our memories. not at me.

he just turned around and moved on..

and i am still here. at the same spot. waiting for him to turn around and give me a big hug.

i was at the book store the other day..

was planning to get a few love stories books home.

one of them was ' I am sorry, I miss u'.

it just hit me on the head that why should i be so silly?

why should i still be holding on?

i shouldnt!

and now ive decided.. i am not going tooo..

=]

don worry i'll be fine... ;]

*************************************

so.. where am i now?

SG!

why?

cox i was working at kent ridge today with sec 3 kids..

how was it?

it was awesome.. ive learnt sooooo much.. and i had so much fun cox they were simply adorable..

how long am i gonna be here?

till sunday morning..

so pls call me or text me or leave me a msg on fb if u wanna catch up..

till then.

MWAH!

2009-02-02T07:54:00.000-08:00

I miss u badly..

2009-01-25T18:57:00.000-08:00

ahahahha..

i love CNY!

even when i put on weight like a fat bitch..
i am gonna lose it when i am back at melby.. i swear!

so.. nothing much hv been happening at all.. besides the fact that ive put on weight! and being around with your family and frens is AWESOME!

i don wanna go back to melb but i wan to at the same time...
sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh...

wish i hv lots and lots and lots of angpau this year!

2009-01-17T21:03:00.000-08:00

//cute cute photo//

wahahha..

just to remind everyone i am still alive..

will update soon!

2008-11-08T17:45:00.000-08:00

有多痛都已经麻木了，

何必再追求不属于自己的心。

重新再来，朋友。

2008-11-07T10:43:00.000-08:00

grumpy grumpy grumpy!

u hv no idea how grumpy i am now..

PMS.. damn the hormones..

then exam was pretty bad today.. hopefully i'll be able to pass..

fire alarm went off again cox i forgot i was heating my favourite TOM YUM !

freaking HBF has got sooooooooooooooooo many things to be covered!

AON is like 2 days later and i havent started shit..

haven been sleeping since 11am till now.. 5.48 am..

idiot ppl re not studying when i wanna go home and sleep.

how can i not be grumpy!!

so annoyed that i might cry anytime if i yell at ppl now..

seriously.. hate ME Self being grumpy..

it's not funny..

damn it!

i wanna swear and sleep now!!!

!@$##$%$%^#@!

2008-11-07T08:13:00.000-08:00

3.13 早上

什么都别想

请你专心读书

。。。

2008-11-04T03:08:00.000-08:00

just friends.

普通朋友
作詞：陶吉吉　作曲：陶吉吉

等待　我隨時隨地在等待　做妳感情上的依賴
我沒有任何的疑問　這是愛

我猜　妳早就想要說明白　我覺得自己好失敗
從天堂掉落到深淵　多無奈

我願意改變 (what can I do)
重新再來一遍 (just give me chance)
我無法只是普通朋友　感情已那麼深　叫我怎麼能放手

但妳說　I only wanna be your friend　做個朋友
我在妳心中只是 just a friend　不是情人
我感激妳對我這樣的坦白　但我給妳的愛暫時收不回來
So I 我不能只是 be your friend　I just can't be your friend

2008-11-03T22:35:00.000-08:00

moments that we had. were great memories.
you said they were special to you. so they were special to me as well.

but
how could forget how we started.
how could you forget all the promises we made for each other.
how could you forget how happy we were.
how could you forget how much u used to like me.
how could you
how could you
how could you
i asked.

questions no need to be answer.
it doesnt matter anymore the moment when u realised u gotta leave.
it doesnt matter anymore the moment when u realised i could find someone better.

tears may keep me company at nights without you.
tears may keep me awake and realised how much these meant.
it meant

youth.

if this is what i have to go through as a teenager, i will face it with courage.

maybe i may not forget you and be by your side when you need me.

maybe i may forget you tommorow morning and continue with my life journey.

maybe there are too many maybes that we will never know.

who knows how high is the sky?

who knows how deep is the sea?

who know what will happen next?

God knows..

all i need is courage to face all my challenges in life.

i know, all these wounds that i had, made me who i am today.

I may be a better person tommorow.

who knows?

for Jyn and Feli.

xoxo

2008-11-03T02:18:00.001-08:00

原来到头来都是一场空

2008-10-25T08:54:00.000-07:00

it's so hard.

but i'll try. i'll try so hard. i will.

God, pls give me courage, give me determination.

I wan this. I really do.

2008-10-22T06:02:00.000-07:00

sorry for the lack of update!

been really busy and exam's right at the corner.

but! party sessions never stops due to birthdays and baby showers and all..

you just cant help it!

till i get the time.. for the time being.

everything's good good.

and i miss malaysia already!

I am seeing you EXCLUSIVELY

2008-09-10T16:39:00.001-07:00

sorry for the late of updates guys..
how hv i been?
i hv been good.

nothing too special happened
and i guess i have lost the inspiration to blog. lol..

well.. the weather here is good!
for yesterday at least.
it wa sfinally sunny and you can actually put ur shades on.
that was really really cool!

it's funny how we used to tease ppl when they start talking about the weather.
the fact is. when u re here, u really do talk about the weather.
the weather has been so unpredicatble that sometimes, we have to check the weather forecast to make sure what to wear.

weather has also turn into a important key to a conversation.
when u see a stranger, you might start talking to him about the weather.
how has it been like lately? was it like this last year? how is it gonna be like during summer? the EXACT degree of the weather.

i was so amazed when i realised. yes, weather is not a shit conversation. ppl mean it when they talk about it. lol..

ok ok.. enough of my weather talk. whatelse about me? hmmmm..
went for kick boxing class on monday and my body is still sore now.
chocolate here taste awesome!
my new favourite food is PHO. viet beef noodle soup.
got another job now.
got burried underneath heaps of assingments
nothing else i guessss..

love u guys!

xox0

2008-09-10T16:18:00.000-07:00

woke up early in the morning.

the thought of u makes me weak.

my heart aches.

i haven been missing you for such a long time.

i thought i never did really care about you.

i guess i do.

we promised not to date anyone else unless she/he is better than you/me.

i am sorry

i broke the promise

he can never be compare to you.

you were my perfect guy.

it was a perfect relationship until you left.

many times i asked what will happen if you re still here.

i guess i will never know.

perhaps not knowing is the best.

i have the photo of us on the wallpaper of my laptop.

each and every time i see it. i smile.

it was such a good memory we had.

sometimes, i hope it never happened.

so it wont hurt when i think of you.

now i promise you i will take good care of myself.

i will find someone better.

till then. i shall put you deep inside my heart.

you may never see this.

you may not care for now.

but you will still be my perfect guy.

i don wanna know anything.

nothing at all.

i don wanna shatter my dreams.

thanks for showing up in my life.

i am really greatful for that.

sorry for i never really care about you.

but you will never know.

you will never find out.

2008-08-27T22:12:00.000-07:00

it took so much to walk out of his life.

then, 'boom!'.

another person came.

and u told urself not to be so naive this time.

take care of urself pls.

but, somehow, u just cant help it.

u somehow fell back to the origin.

where no one can do anything unless u do sth urself.

i guess.

many many many times, u just cant keep ur mind straight can u?

u think u know what u re doing. but u don.

u think uve made the right decision, when u re not.

whatever u think have never been right all this time.

u regret by the end of the day.

it hurts so much.

why do u keep putting urself into that situation again and again?

why don u ever learn ur lesson?

when re u gonna learn ur lesson?

be patient and wait.

wait.

just wait.

it's not gonna take too long.

rmb. u re not alone.

2008-08-27T04:18:00.000-07:00

朋友决定了离开。重新开始。

她开始感到厌烦，认为他做了错的选择。
坚决认为自己是对的。

听到她的话，不知不觉感到少许的厌烦。
虽然很要好，可是总也有些事还是自己知道就好。

她有些固执，让人觉得不容易相处。
或许她说得对，事实上只是自己不愿接受事实。所以没有办法认同她很多的想法。
她的世界里好像都是她认为是对的，就一定是对的。
没有商量的余地。不管别人怎么说，都是她对。

或许是人的本性吧。。。
当与他人分享意见的时候，都希望别人认同你的看法。然而当你的想法被反击的时候，你会觉得，这个人怎么那么难相处阿？！
所以，是我的问题吗？？是我不愿面对事实？还是，她太偏激？？

对我来说，很多时候，朋友说得不一定都是对的。直接的说，太伤人。
与其对他说，“ 不，这样是错的。”
不如说，“ 其实，你说得也没有错。可是你觉得如果我们换个方式怎么样？？”
我想这就是我这些年学到，说话的技术吧。。。

在朋友做决定的时候，是不是该帮他决定还是应该给多方面的意见？让他思考该顾虑到的事。
我会做的就只有默默支持。。不管任何决定，自己要承担后果。

朋友，加油。不要后悔！
=）

2008-08-26T16:18:00.000-07:00

sorry sorry sorry for the lack of update.
Jyn is such a big fat bum! lol..
well.. life has been busy.
not too much to be update about tho.
let's seeeeeee...

test's coming up next tues.
working at nando's and also fix currently.
attending hip hop classes every monday.
merdeka celebration this sat.
i am still fat. and chubby. =D

seriously. nothing much to update...
haha..
but i will try to think of sth. ok?
lol...
till then .
peaceeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

dhanish.
promise to u i wont lose myself.
u re the best! love u.
=)